Benthalo76's blog

10-19-20

Ok folk s I really am going to get back on this blog thing. Got jury duty and I'll have something real interesting to blog about.

I wish....

wish I knew how to feel right now...my dads been gone for a long time...but he physically died yesterday.. The Daddy I knew died years ago...That person layin in my bed w

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its still hard to read this 3 years lata...sigh

I'm loving this vid

my health and other more random stuff

First off shot outs to my girl Shanda from ManandWife.TV. love them.  If you don't know who she is she's the wife of Scoop. Scoop is/was a NYC radio DJ personality who like some other DJs decided to branch out on the music scene. He made hits with Missy Elliott, Busta, and a lot of other celebs, putting out his one of a kind voice and usually runs tour as a hypeman getting the crowd ready for various concerts. I believe they may have had a radio show at one time and they used to do live show or onair segment. For a short time they also had a show on MTV. Anywho along with the website where they are usually doing a webshow together Shanda also has her own vlog "Shanda Says". She recently did a vid on PCOS. A few weeks ago I went to the doc and complained about some womanly and hormonal problems I've been having recently and she suggested I get a get a ultrasound. The ultrasound found some things some small fibroids (no shocker there, she said there were too small to be concerned about) most importantly a cyst. Which has probably been there for years. I never heard of it till she mentioned it so I did some quick research. I may have PCOS I have all the symptoms that Shonda mentioned as well but my doctor didn't mention that. So in a few weeks I'm going back to the doc for a biopic(sp?) to confirm. Then maybe another ultrasound in a few weeks after that for a checkup. Sigh personally I hate doctors appointments but I try to keep there regularly because I like to be aware of my health. I'll be sure to mention PCOS when I see her again.

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update *doc said the test and everything was fine I've been normal since then *shrugs* ask if I was gettin back on bcps and I was like nope lol

is going au naturale

deciding to go natural much to the chagrin of momz who says its not professional...(ummm I'm a desk jockey really who cares? lol) more on this lata

Random postup # whateva lol

Hey guys. I know its been a min since I last posted. Its been a pretty uneventful 2 months lol. Naw that's not really true. My stress level been kinda crazy trying to keep it together but I really don't wanna get into it atleast not online lol. But today is mom's day and she wants to go to Outback meanwhile lil sis has disappeared and has not called. Hmmm . Been thinking about going back to school (because of what's stressing me out lol). Probably should have done this a long time ago but instead decided to do business/accounting and well you see where I am now. I'm flabbergasted that I'm now 34 and still somewhat confused about what to do with the rest of my life. All I know is that this isn't working. Granted I'm better off then I was 2 or 3 years ago it took me a long, long, long, time to get to this point and its still not a great point, and I want to get to that top of the mountain.

Some otha stuff..I forgot to give a Shout out to my nyc homie Shawn for my bday present 2 months ago. That's so terrible of me. He sent me a brand new vid card so I can have kewl graphics and play games and waste more time lol, just because I bitched bout it (damn I need to bitch more often). I really wanna get back into making jewelry but buying supplies and classes are a little expensive for me. Get this most of the necklaces I made including the one I brought broke. I guess cause I wore them so much lol. My pearl necklace is missing. I really liked that one too. I don't think I'll be taking another class at that shop though. Too expensive for the little 3 hours they give you but time did fly by. I was the only noob and felt like a idiot cause I didn't know how to do anything eveyone else was crusing like it was thier 2 or 3rd class or something. I need more practice for sure. I don't wanna give it up but it can get to be an expensive hobby if you like gemstones like I do :). 

Its me again

I cried when I heard this....

Jill Scott Live at the Verizon Center Performing "Here My Call"

[Verse 1]
Here I am again asking questions,
Waiting to be moved.
I am so unsure of my perception,
What I thought I knew I don't seem to
Where is the turn so I can get back to what I believe in?
Back to the old me and

[Chorus]
God, please hear my call. I am afraid for me.
Love has burned me raw I need your healing
I need Your healing.

[Verse 2]
I've been such a fool
How did I get here?
Played by all the rules
Then they changed
I am but a child to your vision
Standing in the cold and the rain
Lost here in the dark
I can't see.
Gotta take a stand, what is happening?
Oh, this hurts so bad. I can hardly breathe.
I just want to leave so

[Chorus x2]
God, please hear my call. I am afraid for me.
Love has burned me raw I need your healing
I need Your healing.

Father's Day 2010...

Honestly me and my Dad didn't have the best relationship eva but I am glad he did try to be a part of my life for as long as he could. I had to learn to let some stuff go....it was hard a time with it but you can't continue to live in negativity it only makes you an evil person. So I just try to remember the good times. I was blessed with a Dad and so many of us don't have any. Also I am pleased by the fact I know some other great father figures as well(my late Grandfather, my friends). My only advice to you fathers out there to continue to be Dads and stay the course even though it may be hard and your kids may be knuckleheads( talkin bout myself included lol) u are surely needed! Do what you can to be a part of your child's life. That's all. Happy Father's Day RIP D.A. Michaels~aka~ my Dad ...

my Bday continued..my worst restaurant experience ever... and other random thoughts

Oh my! I've been to some ho dum restaurant but this is by far the worst experience I've had. I won't mention the name cause I already called them out on Yelp. I've never gave a bad had an experience that terrible. I actually gonna pay my sister back. I can't let her pay for that foolishness. We even contemplated on skippin out lol. Chef Ramsay would have a freaking field day with that spot. Makes me what to travel back to DC to the Jamaican joint. Yeah it was a hole in the wall but the food was good. Anywho any locals might know of the Churicassa I speak of. Or the place that tries to pass off as one. The place was Chinese food on one side and Churicassa on the other and who know what they were doing in the corner. I couldn't believe the place was packed actually.  I was waiting on the lamb and the turkey that was favored in the review. Both pink! I didn't decide to give it another try or wait for another to come around. They were rushing it. I stuck with the ribs and the meat on the bar (pot roast?). Salad bar was some random ish they decided to throw together. Not even a full bar. I mean the only thing I liked was the plantains. I bet the cooks don't even know the difference between rare and raw. Ugh neva again will I go to this place. 

my birthday and the Jill Scott+Maxwell Experience

After waiting 3 and some odd months this day finally came!  At the last minute there was some rumors about cancellations while I was at work so I got anixious. Checked Maxwell's sites and my date was still on but Thursday was cancelled for whateva reason. No matter my night was still on. While I admit it would had been a better experience had I not went solo I don't regret going at all. I almost missed it cause it took foreva to get out there. There was a Nats game so the metro was extra packed. I wore my red halter dress/top with some skinny jeans. I wore flats even though I contemplated carrying my platforms but I didn't want to have another bag nor did I want the bag confiscated. I also didn't bring my cam cause I figure my nosebleed seats were too high to catch anything good. I did cop a pair of rental binoculars for 10 bucks O_o. So I finally get to my seats and the show has already started.It was a really classy affair( As I assumed with the ticket prices) everyone was dressed to the nines. I expected red carpet at the door.  I felt young and  under-dressed with  jeans, bangles, a little gloss aIong with the rest of the outfit I threw on. Guy Torry had everyone cracking up. I finally found my seat and Guy said his last little joke expressing his love for the Lakers winning  the Finals and DC sports teams being a joke(which of course I didn't think was that funny) with some line about seeing CP in a show and saying the Skins suck and how he was safe because all he had to do  was run towards the goal line or something like that lol...(hopefully this year will be different)anywho...Jill came out in with a nice little band and some dancers in the background silhouette (check the vid I found). See was looking classy yet sexy in a little "leatherette"?  top which appeared to have crystals studded on them( or maybe she wore something underneath? paired with some equally dark sparkly tights or leggins..she also wore some zebra stripped cut out booties...sounds crazy I know but check out the vid you see she pulls it off...She also had a nice little band with some horns two drummers and some nice sounding brothas singing background who looked yummy lol..the dancers in the back (I guess to keep the focus on Jill while giving the brothas something to look at?). Even though most of the brothas atleast to my examination of the crowd had their eyes on Jill. Jill voice is immaculate she switches from rich baritone to operatic high notes on a switch of a dime. She got a lot raunchier( or nastier however you wanted to say it) then I expected in cross my mind and Crown Royal a crowd fav even though its more like a piece then an actual song. Even though she did sing a few sad love songs she brings out her energy and emotions to every song. She did conversate inbetween songs. She mentioned the gossip blogs and rumors of them not being able to do an arena show, yet the house was quite packed. There was one song she did about lost love where she got into it for a minute and that literally brought me to tears...Whew.. anyways as you can tell I thought she killed it. She stayed on stage the entire time (a lil over an hour) and didn't do any set changes or switch outfits the only time she left the crowd was when she went to get some water. On to Maxwell
We had an about a 30 intermission while the stage and band got set up. Someone famous must have came in during this time. Some say it was Jill others say it was Michelle Obama. I couldn't tell. Maxwell was headlining so of course his set was longer. He sung about every popular song of his so I'd say his set was a little over a hour. He mentioned how the area sold out and how grateful he was about it. He also mentioned how it was great it was to have people spending money on real music and bands. He really seemed to love his band and the band was pretty good. He had a nice female background singer too, along with some males, A full band drums/percussion, horns section with a sax and a trombone player, guitars, organ and keyboards. As you can see from the vid he also had a nice AV setup going on in the background. Maxwell did bring the energy he danced around on stage and got the crowd into every song but maybe a lil too much? I'm starting to think he can't hit though high notes that he used to when he first came out. Or maybe he was just tired after a long tour. Voice is still smooth though and  he put on a great show and he's an awesome entertainer. It seemed like he just didn't want to night to end as he did a excellent rendition of the Isley Brother's "Don't say goodnight." Wondered off the stage. Then came back and did an additional song.

jill scott/maxwell tour in d.c

Maxwell - Don't Say Goodnight: LA Staples Center 6-5-10

 

jill scott/maxwell tour in d.c

Jill Scott @ DC Verizon Center 6/18/2010

My walk

My time is flying. April is almost ova. I went to my MS walk yesterday. I don't know if it was because we arrived a little late it didn't seem as packed as last year. It also seemed as if they altered the route by 2 miles almost. Which I should be happy about cause I was but tired after wards. Then we had the brilliant idea to go to Bens Chili bowl which was on the other side of the city (in da hood). But that time I was past done lol.

So momz asked me why do I walk after he's gone. To tell the truth I wasn't really aware of the National MS Society  Honestly if I had walked before he died it wouldn't have changed fate.But the answer is simple I walk cause I want there to be a cure. People shouldn't have to suffer if they don't have to. They shouldn't have to suffer like he did. They should be able to have services and the support they need to make it thru their difficult time. That's why I walk.